Ugh. I am made of so much fail these days, you guys. I don't even know where to start. The worst part is, I didn't even realize how much I was failing, because it didn't dawn on me that I was actually in a depressive state because I'm not actually to the point of feeling suicidal. And on what fucking scale of normal does that equate? Blah.

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Sorry to dump a bunch of whining on your flist pages. How about some links to make up for it?

Stay Awake When I'm Asleep by harriet_vane
TSN RPF (Jesse Eisenberg/Andrew Garfield) || 36,000 words || Contents May Include: An ASTONISHING amount of curtainfic and schmoop. A lot of nonsense. Some sex.

Nameless But Not Unknown by torakowalski
TSN RPF Jesse/Andrew || R || 19,000 || warnings: Amnesia. Ridiculous amounts of h/c (with emphasis on the comfort).

Make your own joke about wolves by apiphile
Inception || Ariadne/Eames || PG || 2900
Summary: Oh like you didn't want to see Tom Hardy in a dress.
I should point out that I have never seen Inception, my only concept of the Inception characters is from apiphile's fic and ramblings, and I don't usually read het. But I generally love anything she writes enough to include it on my rec lists. So if anyone skips over it just because it's HET? I would be disappointed.

And speaking of het I don't usually read, I haven't read anything from HP fandom in a long time, but one of the pairings I did follow there was Granger/Snape, and this was written as a gift fic for a very lovely friend of mine:

The Granger Solution by talesofsnape
HP || Granger/Snape || slightly nsfw || ~22000 words || full of tension, flirting, wit, and banter
written for keladry_lupin

And the last link isn't a fic rec, but a link that was shared on twitter by Chip Coffey, who some of you may know from Paranormal State (stfu, I love that show! Even if I totally make up fic for the actors in my head sometimes, and think Ryan has gotten too big for his britches over the seasons.) or Psychic Kids on A&E. Either way, I kinda find Chip Coffey to be amusing and entertaining.

Ten Ways to Become More Psychic

Okay, so I'm gonna go pretend to sleep or pretend to be productive but really just end up watching bad movies on Netflix or tossing and turning in my bed while writing fic in my head that'll be forgotten by morning, but whatever. I love you guys, even when I'm being fucktarded because I'm fucking crazy. Stupid fucking bipolar.

Okay, so I have three fics in progress (one for irisgirl12000 about Baby Belle, since I never sent it to her last week and is technically just a snippet); one for swear_jar, which I'm going to pretend is her birthday present so as to explain the delay in finishing it; and one for jackiesjunkie) and a post I wanted to make about my weekend. And I have a shiny new laptop!! I also have a headache, but no one will be surprised to hear that.

Instead of all those things, though, right now I'm going to talk about helping your fellow LJ-ers and also throw out a couple fic recs!

I am selfish enough to put a link to my own stuff first, so if you haven't had a chance to check out my Relay for Life post, please do so. :)

apiphile has a post here where she is offering words for donations made to soda_and_capes or myselftheliar. For details and/or information about what they need donations for, check that post.

danacias brought this Groupon deal to my attention, and the offer runs through midnight EST tonight, so I'm going to steal part of the post she made about this.

If you're reading this, there is a good chance you know - or know of - harriet_vane. More specifically, you may know that she teaches at a public school in New York, and that she encourages her students to participate in the book club she runs. Approximately 25 kids are currently signed up, but very few of them can afford to buy the books they collectively decide to read, and the public libraries usually only carry a few copies of a given book, so most of the books the students read are purchased by harriet_vane or by flisters who are able to pitch in for books.

If you've got $10 available for the book club, the current NYC Super Groupon from Barnes & Noble would actually give the class $20 worth of books. So if their next book is $9.99 each, they could buy two books with one Groupon. So, you know, if you can spare $10 for a Groupon for her class, it would be wildly appreciated. By me, by her, by the kids in the book club. If not, no worries. Really.

Again, here is the link for the current Super Groupon from Barnes & Noble. Basically, you buy the groupon and forward the email confirmation or just the coupon code to harriet_vane. (of course, if you want to use this groupon for yourself, it's a good deal any way you go)

Background: harriet_vane teaches high school students (9th - 12th grade) but uses 6th grade textbooks because so few of her students enter her class able to read at proper grade level. She commits a lot of time and effort into creating lesson plans that will motivate her students to do part of their assigned homework, so the fact that she has kids reading harder material in their free time because of her encouragement is kind of amazing.

Now, fic recs:

A Steady Diet of Sodapop and Ritalin by jmc_bks
GK Brad/Ray AU, ~4400 words
Summary: Brad likes elevator music and musical theater; Ray decides he must be schooled in real music.
I adore this whole AU that J has created, and I am so glad that she is writing fic and sharing it. I love her Brad and Ray - and the mention of Gabe Saporta - and I know she is staying a little under the radar, so I'm hoping that some of you will go read this and leave her some encouraging comments. I promise you'll like it.

The Curious Case Of The Firecrotch: This Is Why We Don't Write Our Memoirs While Drunk, Ben. by stratospherique and apiphile
A Fail Noir Adventure
Rated Not Appropriate For All Audiences for swearing, drunken pillow fucking, scandalous histories, and detailed erotic encounters of the homosexual persuasion.
Approximately 22,000 words in length
okay, so I may have had a reaction of a high pitched squee and hand clapping when I saw this. I haven't even started reading yet, but I am so excited to see new fic from these two - I love it when they write together. (not to say I don't love their individual writing as well) I plan on spending my evening curled up with my shiny new laptop reading this.

Okay, I'm going to try to take something else for my headache because I have to start some laundry and stuff before I go pick the boys up from karate. <3

So, I am quite often ready to brag about the awesomeness of apiphile (and my subsequent awesomeness for having her as a friend!) but this is definitely something to be excited about.

Help: Twelve Tales of Recovery

So again, particularly in light of their work in Kyrgyzstan at the moment, I thought it would be a good use of our time to raise some money for Medicine Sans Frontiere/Doctors Without Borders.

I need 12 stories, which can be anything from 1,200 words to 12,000 words long, on the theme of "healing"; the healing in question can be psychological or physical, ideological, etc, but must involve a recognisible sentient being (ie. "healing the environment" is not acceptable as it is not relevant). There must not be graphic pornography in your story.

You may submit more than one story, although only one story will be published. There is no guarantee that your story will be one of the ones published; criteria for inclusion in addition to compliance with the entry requirements includes whether or not I've got enough submissions of suitable length to make the book worth people buying.

The material you submit must be original work; no fanworks, and no sending original work whose printing rights you have already given to someone else.

In order to have this book ready for sale in December [for Christmas] I will need the final draft of your story by the first week of October.

You are encouraged to disseminate this information as far as possible across the interwebs.

Profits from the sales of the book will be donated directly to MSF from the monthly author remittances delivered by Lulu.com.

Okay, listen up, yall. There is this verse that I absolutely LOVE, and I know that I've mentioned it here on LJ and also in our email chains and probably if I've had an actual conversation with you recently, but I don't think yall understand the magnitude of my love for this world that stratospherique and apiphile have created. (also, what does it say about me that my favorite places these past few months have been harriet_vane's schmoopy Johnny/Evan ideas and BPV, which are two worlds so completely opposite I wouldn't even know where to begin comparing them)

Anyway, the Brat Prince Verse is a series of stories created by stratospherique and apiphile, both of whom I love as writers and as friends. Here is the master list of links for the Brat Prince Verse. I should probably also link jumptheshark's posts on borderline personality disorder and mental illness, which are linked in the master post and which I also plan on including in my updated Author & Beta Resource Guide.

Now, on to an abbreviated version of why I love the 'verse. It is delightedly fucked up. It is probably wrong that I love it as much as I do, and that certain bits of it make me SO FRICKEN HAPPY, but it's okay because I'm not the only one who feels this way. I love that it's bits and pieces of their life together - Mat and Bob and Patrick - and that it's not in chronological order and that it's told from different viewpoints in different pieces. It makes it interesting to piece together. Also, the dynamic of their relationship just hits me in ways that I can't explain. Seriously, they hit kinks I didn't even realize that I have, or that I don't admit that I have. Some of it is really fucked up and dark. There is incest that is actually dirtybadwrong, and not in the dirtybadwrongsofuckinghot way of Wincest. Just... wrong and squicky and fucked up, which is how incest actually IS but isn't how it's portrayed most of the time in fandom. (don't get me wrong - I'm a total wincester, but this works on a different level) There are a lot of times that I question Mat's actions and thoughts, but at the same time, I can relate to some of them. SO FUCKED UP. But there is also the faildorableness of Mat trying to take care of a sick!Bob. And there is the kinkiest cuddle!fic ever that totally warms my heart. And there are pictures by howifall.

Seriously, give these stories a chance, even if you you're not into bandom. Hell, especially if you're not into bandom. I mean, it's AU anyway, and Mat Devine is tragically absent from bandom anyway, and I can provide you with pictures of the characters if you need.

( This is Bob Bryar. )

( This is Patrick Stump. )

( And this is Mat Devine! )

So, GO READ and be sure to leave some love for the authors! Or the artist if you're checking out the associated fanart!

Also, bug stratospherique for a new Kill Hannah primer, or at least a better picspam than I could come up with b/c I'm easily distracted by shiny. ;) I mean, it's not like she's busy with school or anything...