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I'm trying wholeheartedly to get back into some kind of spirit, be it holiday or fandom or whatever, just so that I can at least go back to pretending to be happy, but it's a struggle. In the meantime, I think I've become one of those whiny, complaining people that I really don't like, which just makes things all that much worse.

My usual ~~suspects~~ betas are all otherwise occupied, either with real life, or with writing their own fandomy things, or a combination of the two. So, I come begging of my flist... I need a second beta for my Criminal Minds slashfest fic. I don't need someone that knows the fandom, just another set of eyes to go over it for grammar, spelling, punctuation, other mechanics, etc. It was already betad by

irisgirl12000, who luckily loves me no matter what, but I prefer to have at least two people read before I post anything that's going to be posted somewhere other than my own LJ. Also, I am going to need betas for my other two slashfest fics, one is HP and the other is and HP/GO crossover. They aren't quite finished, but they're close. Being nonsociable does have its occasional advantages, I guess. Also, if you know me, close doesn't always mean anything b/c I'm very bad with time.

Some of my favorite peoples have been writing up a storm lately, and I feel utterly intimidated by them because they are all so frickin awesome! I can't rec everything that I'd like to, b/c a few of the things I'd love to rec are fics from

merry_smutmas and the authors obviously haven't been revealed yet, so that'll have to wait. But I can make other recs in the meantime, and these things are undoubtedly just as awesome. But you don't have to take my word for it... GO READ!

Top of the list is

notthequiettype, who has posted three fics in the last three days, as well as a hugely awesome slashfest fic that it a must read.

Two Highways East and a Quarter Mile North of Salvation
Pairing: Sam/Dean, Dean/Sam, Wincest
Rating: Adult for content, but not for porn.
Words: ~3,500
Warnings: Incesty-ness, horror movie-like gore, and do I need to warn it's dark? It is the Apocalypse after all.
Summary: from the prompt: Dean and Sam are part of the few who have survived the Apocalypse.

Now, for the porn. She's blaming these on De, which means we should be thanking them both.

The Ties that Bind
Adult J2, Ash's words: Jared's got a lesson to learn. Um, so, De mentioned bottom!Jared and then porn happened. This is maybe the filthiest thing I've ever written. Un-betaed. And uh. PORN. Herein there be kink. And porn. Did I mention that?~1,800 words.

Sleeping Shadow Moves
Adult J2, Jared gives Jensen a pleasant wake-up. ~850 words.

And some awesome Sam & Dean gen, rated Adult for language/insinuation
The More They Stay the Same
Dean's got a strong appreciation for the finer things in life, namely women.

Since de was mentioned more than once in the A/Ns for Ash's stuff, how about we do her next? De, known as

anasuede to the uninitiated, wrote I'm Gonna Give You What You Deserve (Hush Now, Don't Say a Word) for

jsquared_xxxmas for day six (six solid spankings).
Words:: 5,785
Summary:: Jensen just doesn't know when to stop. Like, ever.
There just aren't enough words for me to tell you how hot this is and how much I loved it. De's got such an amazing way with words.

And another slashfest entry fic.
Recollect Me Darling... by

keepaofthecheez
NC-17 Wincest, 5842 words
Warnings: m/m sex, incest, underage (Sam’s 16), voyeurism, masturbation
Summary/Prompt: Dean’s intent on corrupting Sam, but Sam knows what Dean wants and gets off on torturing him.

When I started this post, I wanted to rec something by

wook77, but I can't decide what. By now, all you HP fans should have read her Dean/Seamus slashfest Wish Long and Long, but if you haven't, go do it! The imagery in that fic is so amazing. Otherwise, go lurk around her LJ and read some of the fic she's been posting almost daily this month. She's creates magic with words.

There are a couple other things that I want so badly to rec, but I can't yet. Boo. Here's one more SPN rec.
Once Upon a Time by

ravenrants
PG, features John, wee!Dean, wee!Sam
Sammy asks for a bedtime story, John obliges. It kinda goes downhill from there.....

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I would be happy to beta the HP for you, if you need it.

I would love that, if you wouldn't mind. I can email it to you when I finish? Or I can post in here on LJ custom-locked to only you. My email is tabbycat6380@gmail.com, if you wanna send me your email. If I have it, I don't remember, but of course I have the memory span of a small gnat. I think it's the mommy brain. *g*

kristinnicole@att.net. Let me know what type of betaing you are looking for when you send it. I warn you, spelling is not my strong point!

The HP/GO crossover please :-D

When do you need it by? I'm off work starting this Friday. *cues the Hallelujah chorus*

awesome. I'm having problems with the hp/go b/c I can't get it to turn into actual slash. It's like friendship fic, pre-slash if you turn your head sideways and squint, and it doesn't want to go anywhere else. it's frustrating.

Actually, they're due like friday. But i begged for an extension. Maybe we can talk about it sometime this weekend?

this weekend sounds great :-)

I can do it as early as Thursday evening I suppose.

I'll read it over. I totally started reading it (if that's the same one) and in the rush of Christmas and real life I totally spaced it. I apologize whole-heartedly.

If you ever want me to look over anything, I'm yours. If I ever don't get back to you I just need gentle prodding, my dear.

yeah, sure, whatever. :P

I'm hoping that you and the other few people I sent it to really have been busy. I fear that it's just so horrible no one wants to tell me how bad it is.

As for being mine if I want you to look over something, I'll gladly take you up on that offer too, so you're stuck with me now. *g*

Thank you so much, Tabs. It means so much to me that you liked all of those enough to rec. *loves on you FOREVER*

Also, I got your card in the mail today and I just DIED. You are so sweet! And the drabble is wonderful. I'm feeling pretty hormonally emotional and it made me tear up. I am so grateful to have you in my life, babe!

You constantly amaze me with what you write. I feel really bad because I haven't been commenting, so I apologize for that. But I do really really love it all.

And YAY! I'm so glad that you got your card and that you liked the drabble. The tearing up and dying aren't such good things, but we'll take them in a good way, yeah? *g*

I'm very thankful to have you too! *loves muchly & forever*

*grabs you in a headlock & ruffles you're hair*

I'll be sending your Christmas present to you soon! (Hopefully tomorrow.)

I hope it will cheer you up some, babe. :)

♥♥♥

Baby, I love you. I think I was actually mentioned in ALL of the A/Ns for Ash because she's crazy.

I have a tiny little thing for you for xmas, but it will most likely be late cause I'm sucky like that.

Whenever someone needs a beta it always seems to be just as I'm about to go to bed! I would totally volunteer to look at your Criminal Minds fic, but in my current state I would probably miss things.

And I can understand what you mean about wanting to get back into some kind of spirit -- I've been feeling a similar way lately. Although I was cheered up today when I got the Christmas card you sent me. Thank you! *hugs* The kitty on the front of it is so cute! My holiday cards are always late, so don't think that I've forgotten about you. ♥

By the way, I've been meaning for quite some time to thank you for recommending that Chris/Jared fic, "Timmy Has Two Daddies". I loved it! I'd seen it mentioned before, but I probably wouldn't have got around to reading it if it weren't for your rec. And I'll definitely be reading the fics you've recommended here. <3<3

Oh, I forgot to tell you that I would definitely be willing to look at your Criminal Minds fic when I wake up if you still need someone to (and if it's not too late by then).

Thanks for the card Tabby :-)