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I am trying my best to distract myself with the hockey-related email junebug_waltz sent me and my farmville, but it's not working. :/

For those of you who haven't already heard, it's a sad day in fandom. We lost one of our own today - valerie_z. From what I understand, she had some kind of reaction to her medications on Tuesday and was hospitalized, and passed away Thursday morning. My heart goes out to her boyfriend Craig and to her family and friends.

I'm just pretty much in shock. I love Valerie. I think she's a brilliant writer, and some of her stuff is still my go-to when I need a laugh. And even though we didn't talk on a regular basis, we had quite a few discussions about this bipolar bullshit, and I knew she was always just an email away if I needed something and that she'd GET IT. (It's different, I think, to talk about it with someone who is dealing with the same kind of thing than to talk about it with people who understand? Does that make sense?)

Back in 2010, I went to Atlantic City with bff!Amy and thebunnyknows, and we met up with Valerie and one of her work friends and sinsense to see The Used. I know there was a picture of me and Valerie from that weekend and I cannot find it and it's driving me batty.

*sigh*

I just want to take a moment and tell all of you that I LOVE YOU and I can never express what you mean to me. Thank you for everything. <3333333