July 19 2021

I'm petsitting this week for a friend and she asked that I stay at the house for most of the time because she's got shitty neighbors, so I'm treating this like my minivacation. Away from home, hot tub on the back porch, stack of books, and some netflix downloads - I'm good to go!

Or, I will be good to go this afternoon after I go for blood work, lol.

There is a lot of family drama right now and it stresses me out but I'm trying not to let it. I know I shouldn't panic so much about stuff I can't control, but my brain doesn't actually understand that. There is a pastor in our district who I love, and not just because she and I share the same first name. Several years ago we were working together on planning a youth retreat and she said something that really stuck with me - when she was overwhelmed and trying to do everything and fix everything, she would remind herself to ask "what is mine to do?" and now I try to do that. I even have it written on the back of my current notebook! Not everything is my responsibility or in my wheelhouse to fix. It's a work in progress. (I'm a work in progress?)