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[why_me_why_not]

1. Woke up to a cop at the door, which is never a good thing. Apparently several of the neighborhood cars had been broken into during the night and the police wanted us to check ours to be sure nothing of value was stolen. Not that there is anything of value in our cars, and they were unlocked so there weren't exactly "broken" into, but yeah. Mom and Harley's cars were both messed with - the consoles open and stuff flung everywhere. We all have a habit of keeping change in our center console and all mom's quarter's were gone, but that's it. There's nothing in my car to take, lol, but it wasn't touched anyway. I guess because it was parked furthest up in the driveway / closest to the house. I mean, really, what were they gonna take? My car charger for my cell phone? The charger for the DS? My copy of The Hobbit? The stack of old mail that seems to accumulate between the seats? Maybe the heart made out of the "US" from a BUSCH box that my dad made me for Valentine's Day? Like I said, nothing of value to anyone else. Except maybe my actual copy of Goodbye Blues. I should probably take that out of there.

2. Am not watching any of the 9-11 stuff today. Living through that shit once was enough, tyvm. And yes, I do remember where I was that morning, and everything about that day. I don't think I'll ever forget. Most of us remember traumatic and tragic events. People still talk about where they were when JFK was shot. I remember where I was when The Challenger exploded on January 28, 1986. I remember every detail of the morning my sister died. I don't want to think about where I was on 9-11, mainly because I don't want to think about what came after for me personally because it reminds me of how I'm a weak and foolish person. Seriously, so so stupid, yall don't even know. I don't want to relive that shit.

3. I need hugs and I wish that yall weren't so far away. Seriously, I need ALL THE HUGS today. Or pet!cuddles. Max-and-Val time (at wendy's) or chilling with Dante (at asimplechord's) would be so so appreciated right now. But what I'd really like right now is earlofcardigans, because she gets it.

4. A lot of the people posting all this bs about 9-11 on fb and twitter and stuff today are irritating me, mainly because it feels like hollow sentiments to me. I mean, they should be honoring these people EVERY DAY, not just today because it's the ten year anniversary of the tragedy. And tomorrow they'll forget all about it. Actually, most of them post something and then go back to their ordinary bullshit anyway, and it feels fake and false and ugh. Not everyone, obvsly, and there are people like my friend Camille, who posted something about how she was getting ready to go in this morning and thinking about all the people doing the same job who expected an ordinary day that day in NYC 10 years ago. That's a real sentiment. The men and women that selflessly risk their lives every day for us - the EMTs, the fire/rescue personnel, the members of the police force, members of the armed forces and the national guard, etc - these people deserve our respect and our thoughts and prayers EVERY SINGLE DAY. And I'm sure that most people are genuine in their feelings/posts about today, but some of them just seem like they're posting about it just because they feel they should be. Idk, I'm probably not explaining myself very well, but I hope yall get my meaning.

5. I hope that those of you who are watching the 9-11 memorial coverage today, or are participating in memorial events, or are dealing with memories and ghosts of your own know that you are not alone and that you are loved and thought about.

6. Fucking race last night. Ugh. I blame my brother for my boy Denny Hamlin's bad luck, lol. Long story. :) But the end result is that Denny's out of The Chase. :( I'm gonna throw my support behind Carl Edwards for The Chase, I guess. Although, wait! I just checked and apparently Denny is locked into the Chase, so maybe we're good. Yay! Either way, that wreck last night in lap 8 that involved several of the Chase hopefuls was kinda crazy. RT & Kris were at the race but I haven't talked to them yet - the kids are here so obvsly I'll talk to them at some point today. If I'm awake.

7. I've been watching The Lying Game on ABCFamily and feeling a little bad for kinda perving on one of the guys on the show, but this weekend I figured out that although he's playing a teenager, the actor is 28, so I don't feel so bad now, haha.

8. appt with Sarah tomorrow. funtimes. If we don't get my meds fixed soon, I have a feeling of Bad Things.

9. I wanted to make this ten things, but I'm having a hard time coming up with anything else to say. wow, I'm awesome. I have a headache and I feel pukey today. I want someone to come cuddle me and rub my tummy. And take a nap with me. Did I say that already?

10. My little sister is awesome and I adore her. Best baby sister ever, and apparently college life has brought out a return of her fandomy side, lol.

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Comments

[katieupsidedown.livejournal.com]

some of them just seem like they're posting about it just because they feel they should be

That's been me in past years. I posted about it because everyone else was, because I was "supposed" to, because I worried that if I didn't say something my friends who were really effected by it would be upset with me. But this year I decided I don't feel like playing that game. I don't actually want to post about it. I feel bad for those who lost friends or loved ones, or who had people to be terrified for and worried about for so many hours that day, but that wasn't me. I was 15 years old and had no friends or relatives anywhere near NYC. I wasn't a patriotic person before 9/11, and I haven't become one since.

[why-me-why-not.livejournal.com]

I totally get that, and it makes sense. No one should feel like they *have to* post about it. As with anything else, it's a personal thing. And it's understandable that if you didn't have personal ties to the tragedy that you feel removed from it. And I don't think anyone can or should get upset with you for that.

It also bothers me that most of these people posting because they think they should don't give a shit about first responders any other day of the year. I just don't get people, I think.

[earlofcardigans.livejournal.com]

I do get it and a lot of the time when I think about you, I wish that neither of us did. I also wish I lived closer to you or knew how to be a better friend. I love you the most and I would definitely cuddle you.

We're having a movie day. I'll even let you pick.

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[casualyobsessed.livejournal.com]

I am totally the best baby sister ever. ♥ And it has. So you should find me more. :D

[lilian-cho.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

7. Mmm, I so know what you mean. Not that particular show, but just about 90% of actors out there. I always feel vaguely guilty when perving on anyone younger than me, but thankfully even Skandar Keynes is legal now. ;-)

9. I took a nap today! =D and drooled a little on my pillow

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[lilian-cho.livejournal.com]

...and to be totally honest, I was sick of 9/11 even in year 2002 =/
I was my college newspaper copyeditor (one of two), and 9/11 was the main topic/mentioned for a long time, even in 2004 and beyond. Inevitably I also wrote some 9/11-related articles, because it was assigned to me.