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May. 25th, 2013 11:51 amI keep meaning to make an entry but never manage to do it. Because I'm faily, but yall all know that already. I am, however, writing in my actual paper journal every day, so that is something, I guess.
1. Had a minor emergency last weekend that resulted in a major freakout on my part, and I am so thankful that I have friends that I can turn to because sometimes just telling someone I'm freaking out helps me freak out less, and I'm glad that![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
asimplechord and friend!Amy don't mind me texting them in the middle of the night about things.
2. I have a hockey problem. (biggest understatement I've made in a while)
3. My headaches have changed, and I don't know if that's something I should be concerned about or not? I've got a headache diary so I'll have something to show the doctor when I finally get to see one again, but it's weird to me that for the longest time my migraines were centered on the right side, and last weekend I started having stabbing pains in the back of my head and this week my migraine was more central and I have been having vision issues on the left side as well as the right. Also, the slightly blurred vision pisses me off because I know it's not my eyes/glasses. My current migraine is more of a pain in the ass kind of ache, but it comes with ridiculous nausea. I spent most of Ronnie's baseball game last night feeling like I was going to puke. (Also, while I'm complaining, I still have a spot on my leg from that spider bite from months ago, and my heart rate is consistently way too fast to be healthy, and I'm still waking up having panic attacks, to the point where I seriously have to recover from waking up before I can get out of bed.) But I know there are so many people who have it worse than me and I need to suck it up and quit bitching.
4. I really miss having a job. I know I need to get my bipolar back under control, and do something about the migraines, before I can think about a job, but still. And the kids only have two weeks left of school, so then I'll have the boys every day and Chloe on Thursdays and Fridays, and I'm the backup sitter for several people so I have Larkin for a week this summer while her sitter is on vacation and I think I'm going to end up with Brielle and Catelyn for part of the summer. And goodness knows I'll have Illy for some days, but I don't get paid to watch her.
5. I don't understand how anyone is on like level 243 of Candy Crush. I've been stuck on level 38 on the computer for more than a week now. (I'm on level sixty-something on my phone b/c I don't have it synced with my facebook.) I hate that I ever started playing that stupid game, lol.
6. Two weeks from now, I'll be in TEXAS with some of my favorite people and I'm super excited.
7. Three weeks from now is Relay for Life. Holy fuck, that's not long.
8. Denny Hamlin has the pole for the Coca Cola 600, which makes me happy. I'm glad he's back racing and hope he's actually healed/healthy enough to do it. I am sad that I haven't been to a race this year, and now I won't be able to go to one until the fall. But we're going to a birthday party at my brother's tomorrow, so maybe I'll be able to watch the race with them, which is always something I enjoy.
9. One of the boys on Ronnie's baseball team apparently is a little douche and shit talks his own teammates. The field we usually play at, we're separated from the dugout so I don't know what goes on down there, but this week we were playing at a different field b/c of the softball tournament, so all the parents could hear him. He told Peyton "I feel sorry for whoever came to watch you play because you suck" and called one of the other outfielders a fag because he missed a catch. And I don't understand why you would talk shit to your own teammates (most of the kids on the team actually act like a team and support one another and act encouraging) and I don't understand why the coaches let him get away with it because yeah these kids are one of the older groups playing rec ball but they are still kids and they are still at an age where they should be learning/practicing good sportsmanship. And this kid isn't even that good a player so I don't know why he thinks he has any room to talk. (Also, I just found out last night when we were talking about this on the way home, apparently at some point he called Davey's hair gay, and Davey told him that hair couldn't be gay and that he was ignorant if he thought gay was an good way to insult someone? b/c my kid is a smartass.)
10. My brother's ex-wife got remarried last weekend, and there are NO PICTURES OF THE KIDS. Seriously, all the pictures that have been posted on fb from the wedding, there are NONE of Haley, Joe, and Rach dressed up. That's all I want to see! Idc about Joey Lynn and her new husband.
I'm going to try to nap and hope I'll feel less pukey when I wake up. I hope yall are enjoying your long weekend (if you get one!) and I love ya! <3
1. Had a minor emergency last weekend that resulted in a major freakout on my part, and I am so thankful that I have friends that I can turn to because sometimes just telling someone I'm freaking out helps me freak out less, and I'm glad that
asimplechord and friend!Amy don't mind me texting them in the middle of the night about things.2. I have a hockey problem. (biggest understatement I've made in a while)
3. My headaches have changed, and I don't know if that's something I should be concerned about or not? I've got a headache diary so I'll have something to show the doctor when I finally get to see one again, but it's weird to me that for the longest time my migraines were centered on the right side, and last weekend I started having stabbing pains in the back of my head and this week my migraine was more central and I have been having vision issues on the left side as well as the right. Also, the slightly blurred vision pisses me off because I know it's not my eyes/glasses. My current migraine is more of a pain in the ass kind of ache, but it comes with ridiculous nausea. I spent most of Ronnie's baseball game last night feeling like I was going to puke. (Also, while I'm complaining, I still have a spot on my leg from that spider bite from months ago, and my heart rate is consistently way too fast to be healthy, and I'm still waking up having panic attacks, to the point where I seriously have to recover from waking up before I can get out of bed.) But I know there are so many people who have it worse than me and I need to suck it up and quit bitching.
4. I really miss having a job. I know I need to get my bipolar back under control, and do something about the migraines, before I can think about a job, but still. And the kids only have two weeks left of school, so then I'll have the boys every day and Chloe on Thursdays and Fridays, and I'm the backup sitter for several people so I have Larkin for a week this summer while her sitter is on vacation and I think I'm going to end up with Brielle and Catelyn for part of the summer. And goodness knows I'll have Illy for some days, but I don't get paid to watch her.
5. I don't understand how anyone is on like level 243 of Candy Crush. I've been stuck on level 38 on the computer for more than a week now. (I'm on level sixty-something on my phone b/c I don't have it synced with my facebook.) I hate that I ever started playing that stupid game, lol.
6. Two weeks from now, I'll be in TEXAS with some of my favorite people and I'm super excited.
7. Three weeks from now is Relay for Life. Holy fuck, that's not long.
8. Denny Hamlin has the pole for the Coca Cola 600, which makes me happy. I'm glad he's back racing and hope he's actually healed/healthy enough to do it. I am sad that I haven't been to a race this year, and now I won't be able to go to one until the fall. But we're going to a birthday party at my brother's tomorrow, so maybe I'll be able to watch the race with them, which is always something I enjoy.
9. One of the boys on Ronnie's baseball team apparently is a little douche and shit talks his own teammates. The field we usually play at, we're separated from the dugout so I don't know what goes on down there, but this week we were playing at a different field b/c of the softball tournament, so all the parents could hear him. He told Peyton "I feel sorry for whoever came to watch you play because you suck" and called one of the other outfielders a fag because he missed a catch. And I don't understand why you would talk shit to your own teammates (most of the kids on the team actually act like a team and support one another and act encouraging) and I don't understand why the coaches let him get away with it because yeah these kids are one of the older groups playing rec ball but they are still kids and they are still at an age where they should be learning/practicing good sportsmanship. And this kid isn't even that good a player so I don't know why he thinks he has any room to talk. (Also, I just found out last night when we were talking about this on the way home, apparently at some point he called Davey's hair gay, and Davey told him that hair couldn't be gay and that he was ignorant if he thought gay was an good way to insult someone? b/c my kid is a smartass.)
10. My brother's ex-wife got remarried last weekend, and there are NO PICTURES OF THE KIDS. Seriously, all the pictures that have been posted on fb from the wedding, there are NONE of Haley, Joe, and Rach dressed up. That's all I want to see! Idc about Joey Lynn and her new husband.
I'm going to try to nap and hope I'll feel less pukey when I wake up. I hope yall are enjoying your long weekend (if you get one!) and I love ya! <3
