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I still have letters for claiming on this post, so give me something to ramble about?

Duke keeps getting stuck in the playpen. I don't know why we still have it up, or how he actually gets IN it, but it's kinda funny.

Larkin is STILL not here. If she doesn't come by next Friday, Kris will be induced, but she's already at 4cm, so hopefully we'll have a baby soon.

Monkey got his short cast yesterday, and the dr said his break has healed nicely, so three more weeks and he'll be good to go.

We're supposed to have triple digit temps the next few days, so I think I'm gonna be a homebody. What's happening with yall?

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[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

Our heat index is supposed to be 110 by noon today. It is ridiculously warm already. I hope all the elderly and pets are okay. They're opening cooling stations in the cities. So that should help. There are so many homeless though. I hope they are all okay!

I only ever broke my finger, not anything drastic but I remember how awful even my splint ones. That's probably because I had to wear it for 6 months before they rebroke it and set it again. (It is hideous looking even now. Trust me. LOL) But I can't fathom having a cast on my arm/leg/whathaveyou (I like that this is one word today) for so long. Poor little guy!

[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

my splint ones? WAS...*

This is why I shouldnt' be allowed on LJ, I tell you.

[why-me-why-not.livejournal.com]

haha, I knew what you meant. :)

You know you can edit LJ comments, right? ;)

[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

Oh right. I totally freaking forgot about that.
You didn't used to be able to.
I'm still stuck in that era?

Or maybe you always could and I didn't know for years? LOL

[why-me-why-not.livejournal.com]

Lol, no, it's a relatively recent addition. Kinda.

[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

I remember it near the end. Or rather after I had been here awhile. But I remember having to delete whole comments because typos used to really bother me. I have someone new who has been reading my stories. Because my old beta and I aren't really bffs anymore (we are fb friends though. LOL). And I don't know her well. I happened along her last year when I came back for a few because I had written a fic and wanted some feedback. And I think she's pretty sure I have zero grasp of the English language. I just want to tell her my job is now pretty writing/editing heavy and I shut that part down when I fic write. Or when I found my old fics I wasn't going through them and picking out errors. Because she read a few and was like "Holy hell."

Fandom/Internet/Real Life killed my typing and grammar skills I suppose.

[why-me-why-not.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah, like you have to do on FB now, haha. (I know there is an edit option on fb, but it doesn't always work)

Haha, I know what you mean. I'm always self-conscious about using a new beta because I feel all defensive about my mistakes. I really do know English!

[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

It doesn't always work! Sometimes I hit it like it's going to edit and it eats my whole long comment. And I get so mad. Because I am rational. And getting mad at social networking sites is also rational.

She seems well-meaning but I want to be like I AM NOT A MORON all the time, to her. Heh. Also I still feel defensive about Sarah's editing skills when she's like "found one here.." and I'm like Hey! Sarah edited that years ago. Leave it alone. LOL

I wish I could randomly just email her and be like "Hi, I know you're busy with your boyfriend and pending baby but do you think you could remember how you used to love me and edit these?" (this is my mature and not bitter side coming out LOL). But I don't think I have a big enough throat to swallow my pride and do so. Bahaha.

[why-me-why-not.livejournal.com]

lol. how dare someone move on and have a life that doesn't include you! (even if you're happy for them, it sucks)

[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

Haha. I am happy, deep down. But there's a lot more to the story that I suppose I should be respectful enough to not air in public. But still! I am happy. Because people should do what they want. And no one that loves another human should stop them from doing so. No matter what that means. You know?

[why-me-why-not.livejournal.com]

Ugh, heat. I mean, I complain about the cold, but at least then I can put on more layers. There's only so much clothing you can take off! I'm just saying. I haven't been outside today, so I don't know what it actually feels like, but our thermometer (on the back porch, where it doesn't usually get warm until the afternoon because of the way our house is designed) says 80 with 60% humidity. The humidity is the worst. Either way, I think I'll stay inside in the A/C. And maybe post another reminder on fb about heat safety.

We're lucky that we have the Rescue Mission here - I know that there are homeless around here who don't/won't go to there, but a lot of them do, and they're super about letting people just hang out in the cool and eat popsicles, lol. I feel bad for people who aren't homeless but just don't have A/C. I remember those days, since that was us a few years ago. We'd go to Walmart to walk around just because of the A/C.

I broke my toe once, but Davey is really the first of any of us to break a bone. My sister dropped a rock on her foot and broke it once, but she just got a boot, not a cast. I couldn't handle a cast - I get claustrophobic just thinking about it. I'd have to be sedated the entire time, I swear. Davey had a splint for the first week (which he took off multiple times) and then the long arm cast for 3 weeks. Now the short one. At least with the short one, he can reach his fingers to lick them (it was a big thing, okay?) and get on rides at the fair next week and it'll be easier to cover so he can swim.

[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

I saw the picture of him trying to lick his fingers. I laughed and then felt bad about it. Then I wondered if all parents had kids for free entertainment. ;) I know mine did.

As I was driving to work this morning the bank sign said 94 degrees. It was 8:45.

[why-me-why-not.livejournal.com]

Lol, I laughed when I took the picture. I totally had kids for entertainment and to have them do stuff for me. I'm not gonna do chores myself when I have two perfectly capable boys!

Yuck! Ridiculous heat!

[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

My dad used to always say "why do you think I had kids..." when I would trip and fall and yell at him for laughing. Or when it was trash day and he'd be sitting inside while I drug the cans out to the street. LOL

I just figure that's why everyone has kids right?

[why-me-why-not.livejournal.com]

That's the reasoning for every parent I know!

[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

Maybe I ought rethink this whole not having kids thing?!

[why-me-why-not.livejournal.com]

I'll lend you one of mine - you want the smartass or the one with the attitude? ;)

[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

They both already sound like they could be mine with those descriptions. LOL

[why-me-why-not.livejournal.com]

haha, yes. They're definitely my kids; it's like each of them has a different part of my personality.

[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

I'd be afraid my kids would get my emotional-detached and bitchiness. They would never want to hug me and be mean. That would be awful. LOL

Actually my biggest fear about having kids is that they wouldn't turn out smart and/or witty. No joke. It is a legit fear of mine. I would have to give them back. (I really wouldn't...but that's also why I dont' have kids because that's not even a funny joke when you do. LOL)

[why-me-why-not.livejournal.com]

Lol. My younger one has never been cuddly, and he shows his affection through smart ass, sarcastic comments. My older one has huge problems in school and I don't know how to help him because no one in my family was like that - learning always came easy to us. I really feel bad because Ronnie (older one) inherited a lot of my bad mental issues - I'm pretty sure he's gonna be biploar - and it sucks.

I threaten to sell my kids on the black market or trade them to the gypsies. Like, all the time.

[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

So your youngest one is maybe mine t hen? LOL

I think that is why I fear the idea of my child not being an easy learner, because I have no idea what it is like. I would be so lost. And I just can't imagine. And not that I wouldn't love a kid who has problems in school, of course...but I just would tear my hair out FOR them, you know? My family is sharp and quick to learn, it just seems easy. I know that sounds arrogant and horrible. But it isn't anything *I* did. I always just say that I was blessed and I had good parents who spent lots of money to send me to private school to make sure my brain blossomed once they realized I had one. The public schools wanted to make me wait two more years to start kindergarten due to my age. My parents were like "No way." And had they not? I would have probably been a horrible and bored student my entire life. So really it was my parents and whatever I was born with. I'm not saying "I DID SO MUCH I AM AWESOME." Total opposite.

But I bet your oldest one is really good at things that are hard for others. I've noticed that many people who have problems learning in school are just being taught wrong by their teachers too. The system is so huge. If they don't learn in a mainstream way? They're just SOL. And that's so unfair.

And if he does end up being bipolar? At least you will have a better idea on how to deal with him and help him. That has to be a good thing, right? My family just has alcoholism, not any mental issues. Wait...we wouldn't know because they self medicate with alcohol. So no one in my family (not my immediate family, however) would have any idea how to help me if I had gone to them and said I thought I had some sort of mental issue. They would have just handed me a bottle of beer probably. Or my 3-Phd world renowned doctor aunt would have given you a few xanax and a bottle of wine to chase it with (seriously they are fucked up. Also why I don't want to procreate. They could so end up like them. Yikes. LOL)

Oooh. Bartering for kids. This parenthood thing seems like a better and better idea everyday! ;)

[why-me-why-not.livejournal.com]

Yes, that's it exactly! I have no idea how to help him and it frustrates both of us. He failed his math SOL and has to do summer remediation, and he asks for help and it always ends up in a shouting match. And he's super smart, really, he just can't do math. Like I can't do geometry because I can't "see" the shapes. He doesn't like to read. I always say I think in words instead of pictures, and I think he's the opposite. He's got awesome artistic abilities, and he can memorize anything that interests him. I mean, he can tell you all kinds of random facts about sea animals and name the different species of sharks and where they live and blahblahblah, but he doesn't care to learn about the revolutionary war.

Lol, sounds familiar. My family medical history basically comes down to bipolar and alcoholism (or other drug addiction these days). In a way that's kinda lucky, no cancer or diabetes or genetic disease, but still. They're a bunch of crazy drunks. At least they look out for their own? And everyone always has a good time?

[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

I think that there ought be a better system to teach our kids. Can't we test their learning type and go from there? That seems like such a more efficient way than just trying to force everyone to learn the same way.

I love that he's artistic. I can't even draw stick figures. LOL

[why-me-why-not.livejournal.com]

I agree, to both of those things. We've got SOLs (standards of learning) in VA that pretty much fucked the kids over - instead of learning how to LEARN, they're learning how to memorize pointless bullshit and it doesn't do any of them any good. And they test the kids and split them up at the beginning of the year in our elementary school so that they can be with peers who are on the same learning level as them, but then you end up with Davey learning the same thing as Ronnie in different grades b/c Davey's top of his class and Ronnie's at the bottom of his. The teachers try, but they can only do so much because of SOLs. Blah!

He didn't get his artistic ability from me. I can't draw stick figures either.

[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

I live very close to Gary and Chicago. Two big cities with a not so great homeless population. So I would imagine the cooling centers they are opening up would allow them in. I hope so at least. :(

[why-me-why-not.livejournal.com]

Yeah, even though we're The City, our area is really tiny. Also, it's sad to me there are so many homeless. With my family and my church, I can't imagine getting to that point, y'know? But it happens every day. :(

[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

My dad has been pretty sick, so we've been all over Chicago and some other big cities lately at rehabs/hospitals, etc. We see so many homeless.

Someone (usually my Grandmother or a family friend) hangs with my Dad during the day. And then after work I drive my mom up. So we make something to eat on the way up (sometimes it takes an hour or so to get there, depending on traffic.) My mom always helps me and makes a few extra sandwiches or a few extra baggies of something and we hand them out to homeless at the stoplights. I always wonder how everyone can just pretend they aren't there. It makes no sense to me! Ignorance is not always bliss. It is sometimes just ignorance.

We were at the gay pride parade on Sunday, and I gave a homeless man $5 and my friends were SO irritated at me. But seriously it was $5. He was clearly not pretending to be homeless. Trust me. And so I don't buy a pack of smokes to smoke at the parade, or I don't buy a few beers when we go out afterwards...I fed someone. And I feel blessed to have $5 to give away. I remember when I didn't. If everyone just took care of our people, I don't think we'd have this issue. You know?

/ramble

[why-me-why-not.livejournal.com]

Ignorance is not always bliss. It is sometimes just ignorance. Truest words.

And yep, I get it. And it seems like the people who do give to others are the ones who don't have much to give but who KNOW what it's like to have less, y'know?

The biggest fundraiser for the rescue mission is the Drumstick Dash on Thanksgiving and I think it's Davey's favorite of the things we do during the year, but he regularly makes me buy stuff to donate to the food pantry and gives his change to people on the street and whatnot. He's always so upset about "the foodless people" because it's easier to find shelter than food.

[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

I think that means you raised him properly. My favorite story ever is that my mom and I were both "starving" one day and stopped at Taco Bell when I was a kid. We never ate out. We had started to eat one taco in the car and drove by a guy with a sign that said he was hungry (this was in an area where there weren't many homeless at the time.) and I told my mom how sad he seemed. And she turned the car around and gave him all our tacos. We went home and made sandwiches for ourselves. And it has stuck with me ever since. Because seriously? What a great role model she was.

[why-me-why-not.livejournal.com]

aww, YES! See, I want my kids to be Good People when they grow up. Your mom is awesome.

[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

She is. And we were never very wealthy when I was growing up. I mean we got by. But barely. Because my parents were ridiculous (and I love them for it) and spent all their money sending me to good schools and things like softball camps and whatnot. So they were poor so that I could do awesome things. But the point is we never had much money to begin with and we never ate out and so it was a huge treat and my mom said "If you want to give it to him, we can." and we did and it was like seriously a defining moment in my life. I love that she was a great example for me and my sister both, growing up.

[why-me-why-not.livejournal.com]

That makes sense to me, though. When I had extra money, it all went to the kids. Now that I have no money, I still manage to find ways to send my kids to camp and I pay tuition for them to keep going to salem schools since we moved and whatever. It's the important things in life.

[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

And this is why you know your boys will grow up to be great people! :) Because you are a good parent.

I, for one, have a dog and a cat because I can put them in cages and no one calls child protective services on me. And because they can't talk and tell people what I did to them. ;)

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Lol. My dogs are 10 months old, and they're around the 2yo age for kids, and they're big babies, so when I go to the bathroom, they sit outside the door and cry and try to stick their paws under the door. What do they think I'm gonna do, crawl out the window? Seriously, just like kids.

[sxysadie21.livejournal.com]

Diesel follows me around when I'm at home. Like "Hey where are you going? Why didn't you invite me?" I love it. He can be dead asleep and I get up to get a drink and turn around and he's right there. Just watching.

With Dad being sick I have been staying at my parents. And my best friend has been staying at my place with my dog and cat. And I realized how my animals have the best personalities (I am not biased at all....) because my parents dogs are just so not as awesome.

They do have a 1-yr old cat..her name is Ninja. And we shouldn't have named her that because she is one now. And her little paw can go SO far under the door while you're trying to go to the bathroom or shower. It's slightly creepy. I think she'd make a great horror story.