always been crazy

I am disappointed in the outcome of the Great Food Truck Race. Ugh.

I was worried about being disappointed in Leverage: Redemption so was hesitant to watch it, but some of my favorite peoples seemed to like it, so I started watching it the other night when Davey had the evening off. It is still fun and mostly has the same feel of the original. I don't dislike Breanna, but I miss Hardison. Eliot/Hardison/Parker is the OT3 of my heart. I love that Parker is still so Parker and that Eliot is still so grumpy. (I have watched Librarians multiple times between the original show and this one, so it still trips me up to see Noah Wyle and Christian Kane in these characters instead of as Flynn and Stone.)

I've been watching Z Nation and just started season 4. I think I'm going to give it up (even though I love Doc and 10K and Addy) and pretend it ended after two seasons. Season 4 is dumb, and most of season 3 was too except for the episode with Skeezy and Sketchy.

I saw Black Widow! I'm so glad the theaters are open again, lol, I have missed them. I've seen six movies in the last two weeks.

There are like 9 days left to register for 2021 GISH! We still have room on our team if anyone wants to join! Team Rocksalt

Links:

Why two women sacrificed everything to stop the Dakota Access pipeline

New York City renames parks for prominent Black Americans

Friday July 16 is Be Love Day - A day emphasizing the revolutionary power of Love and the Love-centered, compassionate action that transforms both people and systems.

Recs:

A Nightingale Sang in Hell's Kitchen by PixelByPixel
Daredevil, Good Omens || Matt Murdock/Franklin "Foggy" Nelson || 12k
Sure, a new bookstore had just sprung up overnight in Hell's Kitchen and Matt Murdock was kind of freaked out about the things (apparently not human) that were running it, but Foggy Nelson was more concerned with whether he should tell his best friend he was in love with him.

Experimentation by portraitofemmy
Magicians || Quentin Coldwater/Eliot Waugh || 4812
“I don’t think I’m into this,” Quentin says, and there’s something in his voice that catches Eliot’s interest. Something almost pleading. Like he wants to be told he’s wrong.
“Oh, honey,” Eliot says, absolutely and totally failing to avoid using his Daddy voice because this guy is just– He’s just so fucking cute. “Just because you don’t want to tie up your girlfriend doesn’t mean you can’t make use of the toys. Have you ever thought about trying it the other way around?”

Leave the Light On (I'll Be Coming Home) by HMSLusitania
9-1-1 || Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz, Christopher Diaz || 44k
An accident on a call leaves Buck with custody of Chris after Eddie is... missing presumed.
While they navigate their new family circumstances -- and fight to stay together, despite Eddie's parents' best efforts -- a John Doe wakes up in a coma ward with no memory of his own life beyond the knowledge he has a son named Christopher and, somehow, he needs to get home.
Bonus tumblr post: “of course i remember i love you, i didn’t forget how to breathe either.”

You ever have one of those shows that you just randomly think about and remember how one of the story lines was the worst? Christie and Alak deserved so much better in Defiance.

Watched a bunch of the season finales this last week. I think FBI Most Wanted did the best job when it comes to cliffhangers.

( spoilers for 911, FBI Most Wanted, Chicago PD, Lucifer )

Links:

How to Handle Your Re-Entry Anxiety as the Pandemic Recedes

The Millennial Vernacular of Fatphobia

Rock Happy 'verse by ArwenLune
Stargate Atlantis, Generation Kill || most of the usual suspects from both worlds || 241k
Sgt. Brad Colbert has been on a lot of strange missions, but this promises to be his most out there yet: Atlantis. This is not a story about falling in love. This is a story about falling in team.
Gen story, set mostly in season 4, military focus, outsider perspective, interesting original characters, focus on women in the military. Lots of worldbuilding and 'what happens in Atlantis where the cameras aren't pointing' daily life stuff.

Abolition is the Embodiment of God's Justice

Video: Prisons Make Us Safer and 20 Other Myths About Mass Incarceration

Captive Tigers in the US outnumber those in the wild

Hurricane Season is here! (US East Coast) Preparing for a Hurricane During a Pandemic

Slipping by Paian
Stargate SG-1 || Daniel Jackson/Jack O'Neill || 4153
In the heat of the moment, Jack lets slip something he thinks he shouldn't have.pet names

Ex-Patria by canis_lupis
Stargate Atlantis, Stargate SG-1 || Rodney McKay/John Sheppard || 137k
Ten years ago, an expedition left for Atlantis. They were never heard from again.
incredible worldbuilding, independent Atlantis, great characterizations, strategy and battles - I really just can't express how much I enjoyed this 'verse

Challenge #6

In your own space, rec at least three fanworks that you didn’t create. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

So, I'm totally cheating for this one. Last week, I sent my sister a list of some of the best things of fandom (most of which don't require knowledge of that particular fandom to be enjoyed!) and even though most of them are pretty popular anyway, I'm just going to share the list here.

( under a cut because it's kinda long )

Don't you hate it when you stay up past your bedtime reading a gazillion words of a fic you've found yourself sucked in to and then realize it's a WiP? Me too. So, you're forewarned that these recs are WiPs, lol. At least they were both fairly recently updated?

Captive Prince by freece
Summary: Damen is the true heir to the throne, but when his half brother seizes power, Damen is captured, stripped of his identity and sent to serve the Prince of a rival nation as a pleasure slave.

Real Vampires Don't Sparkle by DeliriousEphemera on fictionpress
Summary: Matheus didn't ask for this. He just wanted a normal, boring life. One bad night, and now he was drinking blood, running for his life, questioning his sexual orientation and generally being a whiny b*tch. Well, that last part wasn't new. slash. snarky.

So, I totally fell asleep last night during the race, in the middle of txtng with snarkyrainbow and following livetweets from my NYC girls about PStump. Woke up around 2am, asked my brother who won the race (Matt Kenseth, for those keeping track), tried to play catch up on twitter/email but that didn't last very long. Seriously, I am SO TIRED these days, esp when I actually take meds for my headaches.

I'm kinda depressed that my brother is out here playing basketball with Davey, and Harley is planting flowers in the yard, and I can't do either. :( (Ronnie is at his other momma's house again) But it's a nice day, so I have the munchkin in her cage out here on the back porch. Roger and Maddie wanted us to come down to the lake for cookout/boatride/etc this evening, but I don't think I can handle that ride today. But Tim just came back from the store with steaks, so haha. He bought extra if anyone wants to come over for dinner, lol.

I've noticed that I have a bad habit of writing about nothing when I write fic. Like, one of the things I have up right now is 1500 words but half of it is really unimportant and pointless. Ridiculousness!

You may remember me saying something about apiphile writing Inception fic that was het and that I'd be disappointed if it was skipped over because of the pairing. You may also remember that I haven't seen Inception, but I like to read AUs and actually like to read fics by authors I like in fandoms I don't know because I can imagine the characters however I like in my own head. And it's easier than most with apiphile's fic, because I have read her original fic and even though TV and BPV aren't actually original fic, they are both worlds of their own. anyway, fic rec.

Take a good swing at all my dreams by apiphile
Written for i_reversebang
Inception || Ariadne/Eames, Arthur/Cobb, past Arthur/Eames || NC-17 || 28,800-ish
Warnings: Some violence, it's a boxing AU!
Summary/notes: This. Only a lot longer.

crotalus_atrox's Art Post and the fanmix posting.

I loved this AU, a lot, and when I'm feeling more clearheaded I'm going to go back and reread it because I have comments for apiphile that I didn't leave for her the first time I read it. But yall should go read fic / enjoy the art & music / leave love for author and artist.

I'm gonna go put the tilapia in marinade and then email asimplechord. <3

Still being super unproductive. Did have a good day on Saturday at Martinsville, despite the headaches and the fact it was super cold and windy and the Bass Pro team didn't win. With the storm rolling in today and that-time-of-the-month also rolling in, my headache last night and today has been epic. Also, my dad and I finished the bedroom downstairs last week, and even though it was decided that Tim would take that room until he found a new place of his own, he didn't go get his bed this weekend like he planned on, so I'm still stuck trying to be polite and not keep the TV/light/my laptop on at night since he has to be up at the crack of dawn for work and we're sharing the living room. Dammit.

In happier news, or the real reason for this post, is that the stories for the Spring Fling Exchange at we_pimpin were posted yesterday. I probably should have rationed them out, but really, what better way to spend a Sunday recovering from an exhausting day of sun and socializing than by overdosing on Ray-fic? Here's the link to the Master Post but here are my favorites: (no authors, obviously, because author reveal isn't until next week)

When I See Tomorrow (I See You There)
Brad/Ray || NC17 || 
5000
 words
When people ask how they met, Brad usually says that Ray followed him home one day, like a demented puppy, and refused to leave.


Sunshine and Springtime
Brad/Ray; Nate/Ray || NC-17 || ~ 9,000 words
The long con of Nathaniel Fick.

You Call This Archaeology?
Brad/Ray || R, for all those creative expletives || 9779 words
Indiana Jones!Au. It’s one thing to talk about consulting with someone, but Brad’s not going to be responsible for keeping some wet-behind-the-ears pup in one piece.

72 Hours Libo

Brad/Ray || NC-17
 || ~4,800
 words
A weekend away from base doesn’t go quite as Brad and Ray expect.

Let the Engines Roar
Ray/Brad || PG-13 || 8,936 words
"You realize we don't do bikes, right? Like, yours is a beauty and I'd fucking love to make an exception, dude, but we're an auto repair shop." He starts walking inside to where Walt is manning the front, because hanging around by the Ducati is just awkward. He'd worry about being rude, except Ray kind of gave that up as a lost cause when he was fourteen. (Fast & Furious AU)

The places we've never been (but were always bound to end up)
Ray/Brad || R || 24,500 words
Brad’s been gone for two years, stopped talking to Ray at least a year before that. Fuck, they haven’t even been friends in almost five years. There doesn’t get to be a lazy, easy friendship between them anymore. Ray just wishes Brad had gotten the memo. warnings: adult language, adult situations, domesticity

I am failing at LJ right now. Actually, I'm failing at life, the internet, and everything right now, so I guess it's par for the course. But I have a list of things I wanted to post about, so I'm going to try and knock that out, then go tackle my inbox and comments, then my flist, then work on fic. Sound like a plan?

If this entry seems like a jumbled mess... well, that's because it is.

Kane's got a song - I think it's from the Live in London album - called Oklahoma State of Mind. Part of it goes NASCAR, strip bars, American made cars, country rockin' women now to get up and get 'em, we got Budweiser beer, Jim Beam, Jack, tequila and lime. Every time I hear that, I think it's totally a Ray Person song. Y/N?

Shameless is SO FREAKING GOOD and I am sad that this week is the finale already when I just got into the show! And I want a million words of all kinds of fic, so I hope there are other people into this. Also, Lip is totally my favorite. But Ian and Fiona are too. And the rest of them.

And I'm totally writing Being Human fanfic (for the US version), especially after Monday's episode.

Someone, I think it was exsequar, posted links on twitter to these pictures of Antartica's Blood Falls, which are pretty damn awesome.

Everyone seems to be hanging out on Tumblr and I'm still behind when it comes to the tumblr craze. Sorry!

A million and one things happened in regards to the panic boys. Brendon Urie is still my favoritest thing in the ENTIRE FREAKING WORLD. No surprise. But I can't tell you anything specific about what's going on with them because I'm failing at the internet. But! I did get a concert call the other night! So I have panic + screaming fangirls on my voicemail, which is a total win!

Kirsten Vangsness posted this pic of MGG and Shemar the other day and it's totally adorable, as those two are.

Wil Wheaton posted about a Stand By Me reunion. for anyone who doesn't know, Stand By Me is my all time favorite movie. ♥

I have this article from our local No Kill Coalition open in a tab, but I'm not sure what I wanted to do with it.

And I have this up as a reminder that I want to find/steal the song b/c it was recced to me when I was looking for songs to write to. (junebug_waltz totally made me an awesome playlist to write kitten!fic too, btw. she is made of win.)

I still have swear_jar's the gentle art of making enemies: cigarettes open on my screen because it doesn't have nearly enough comments on it and I keep meaning to find more people to rec it to and/or encourage to read it.

We were playing Scene It the other day at James's and no one knew the scenes from Footloose! And it was like the tractor scene! Who doesn't know that?!

I am sick and tired of being crazy. So over this bullshit.

Also over these headaches. And I'm worried that they're going to ruin my enjoyment of concerts. I haven't actually been to a concert since I started having them. I mean, I went to the Cobra/Travie concerts, but that was while I was severely concussed, lol, so that doesn't count. And I did go see Carrie Underwood & Billy Currington, but I felt like crap that entire time, and I don't know if that was the company and/or my general emotional state that week. I am so afraid that my enjoyment of Panic and NKOTB/BSB is going to be affected by this. And that my enjoyment of races is going to be affected. We're going to Martinsville next weekend, so I guess that'll be the test.

The other tabs I have open are related to job searching or my CEUs, and the other windows I have open are also related to job searching or to partially written fic. I don't think yall want that, do you? So, I'm going to try to tackle some of this other stuff. I will be so happy when we get my bedroom finished because trying to be quiet because my brother is sleeping is kinda boo. But he has to be up at 3am. Blah.

If I've missed something important, tell me here!

GUYS GUYS GUYS!

GUESS WHAT?

swear_jar POSTED FIC!

I am super sleepy and grumpy about the dreary day and about the lack of post-Oscar afterparty conciliatory Andrew/Jesse sex fic, but I will read Jess!fic and watch Castle and my night will be good. :)

So, yall should go read this awesome GK AU (that I have been waiting on for weeks) and leave Jess some love. Or at least a "hey, I liked this" comment.

The Gentle Art of Making Enemies: Cigarettes by swear_jar
GK || Rated R || Brad/Ray || 28K || warning for violence
Assassin!AU. This is a continuation of the gentle art of making enemies, which is a wee short prologue that is very much need to read for some of this to make sense.

DUDE! THIS WEEK IS ALL ABOUT AWESOME POSTS ON MY FLIST!!

Favorite authors posting fic is always A++, so let's start there:

Shelter by stratospherique
Shelter || 2800 words || Porn with a dash of sexual orientation questioning || Title comes from the movie this is loosely intended to be a prequel to- see it. Surf dudes having feelings and sex, what more could you want? Seeing the movie is massively unnecessary for reading, though, it's intended to stand entirely on its own.

Memoirs: Epilogue also by stratospherique
Porn || Features fluff and warm fuzzy feelings.
(goes along with The Curious Case Of The Firecrotch: This Is Why We Don't Write Our Memoirs While Drunk, Ben., which stratospherique wrote with apiphile)

And apiphile has ruined me for Inception. I still haven't seen the movie (yes, I do live under a rock, I think this has previously been established), but Del mentioned earlier that I'm probably going to be disappointed that the movie is not actually wall-to-wall porn. SHE WOULD NOT BE WRONG!

Summer by apiphile
Inception || 3,100 words || Ariadne/Eames

And speaking of fandoms I'm not in, harriet_vane wrote Jesse Eisenberg/Andrew Garfield fic. I'm not in TSN RPF fandom! I barely know who Andrew Garfield is!! But this fic is adorable and hysterical and I love it SO MUCH and her Justin is quite possibly my favorite thing about the fic, except that the entire thing is my favorite. (“What you need to do,” said Justin, totally ignoring him, “is send him a naked picture of yourself. That’s how this shit works. I saw it on To Catch A Predator.”)

Don't Carry It All by harriet_vane
25,000 words of Jesse/Andrew awkwardnes goodness, with a healthy dose of Justin.
It started because Justin decided to set up a dating profile for Jesse against his will.

Also on my flist this week, this awesomely happy-making multi-fandom picspam from sonicbookmark (who I adore and am going to kidnap so we can run away and get married), several awesome recaps from LA CON from wendy (complete with pictures!), PatD concert and m&g recaps from sunsetmog, pictures from pecos's Asia Adventures, and lots of flailing about Discos and PStump and MF'ing EMPIRES (yall have all gone to vote for them, right?)!

This is totally a happy week!!